Harga Kemanusiaan, Agama, dan Tuhan

Bibir pagi masih basah dengan senyum embunnya yang mengembang. Mendung mengabut di sela-sela harap dan cita. Segalanya masih sama, tampak abu-abu dalam samar nyala hidup yang kian menyemburat risau. Masa lalu adalah leluka juga suka cita yang tak patut dipersalahkan. Pun masa depan, biarlah merahasia sebatas tantangan. Hanya hari ini adalah milik kita, Sayang.. "Carpe diem!"  begitu kau pernah dengan lirih namun tegas berpesan.

Coffee Shop Jl. Bougenville no.57, tempat biasa sekaligus pertama kali kita bertemu. Aku disini menunggumu, di kursi paling pojok favoritmu. Tidak berbeda seperti kali pertama, kau datang dan tersenyum menjumpai diriku berjibaku dengan bukubuku dan secangkir kopi hitam pekat pesananku yang tak pernah banyak tingkah di meja depanku. Sejuk udara menerobos hangat di celah perbincangan yang lama tak lagi saling kita ritualkan, sejak kurang lebih dua setengah tahun lalu. Sedikit kaku, meski aku tahu kita sama-sama mengupayakan moment ini menjadi biasa lagi dengan sekedar ngobrol-ngobrol ringan. Bercerita tentang skenario hidup yang semakin rumit dengan plot antah berantahnya.Siapapun adalah tuhan atas takdirnya sendiri.

Berdamai, Tuhan-Tuhan pun Ngopi di Gunung Kawi

Kwan Im dalam Eksotis Spiritualitas

Gumpalan hitam tebal menyelimuti malam, tepat setengah 1 dini hari setelah sempat kulirik jam di ponselku mengarah. Suasana tampak sunyi, tak ada suara-suara yang lantang terucap hanya seloroh kecil dan bisik yang nyaris tak terdengar ditengah kerumun orang-orang. Gelap kembali merayapi atap langit Gunung yang terletak di sebelah barat kota Malang, desa Wonosari ini. Bau wangi-wangian khas kembang kuburan (biasa orang menyebutnya) tajam mencuat, menerobos hidung yang mulai kedinginan. Tak ada lolongan Serigala, namun suasana malam pertama di awal tahun baru Islam berdasarkan perhitungan Jawa di tempat ini tak kalah keramatnya.


Beberapa orang terlihat sibuk mengangguk-anggukan setengah badannya didepan Kwan Im, tempat bersembahyang etnis Tionghoa, sembari menelungkupkan kedua tangannya pun tak alpa mulut mereka berkomat-kamit isyarat memohon doa. Ah, aku tak tau persis artinya, hanya menaksir agaknya mereka memohon agar hidup sejahtera, memiliki keturunan yang baik, mendapatkan kebahagiaan, terlindung dari segala macam penyakit serta mengharapkan limpahan rejeki dan berkah. Karena begitu juga biasanya aku berdoa. Berkah merupakan satu kata yang paling dipercayai memberi kebaikan serta keberuntungan dan di ingini setiap orang yang berkunjung di tempat ini. Tak heran, jika setiap tahunnya mereka rela kembali berduyun-duyun ke tempat yang diyakini sakral dan dipercaya mustajab (dimana doa mudah terkabul) ini, tak lain agar mendapat berkah atau "ngalap berkah" biasa orang Jawa menamainya.

Pesarean Inti, Paduan Ritual dan Doa...

John Denver - On The Wings Of A Dream

Yesterday I had a dream about dying
About laying to rest and then flying
How the moment at hand is the only thing
We really own

And I lay in my bed and I wonder
After all has been said and is done for
Why is it thus we are here
And so soon we are gone

Is this life just a path to the place
That we all have come from
Does the heart know the way
And if not, can it ever be found
In a smile or a tear or a prayer
Or a sigh or a song


And if so, then I sing for my father
And in truth you must know I would rather
He were here by my side
We could fly on the wings of a dream
To a place where the spirit would find us
And the joy and surrender would bind us
We are one anyway
Anyway we are more than we seem

There are those who will lead us
Protect us each step of the way
From beginning to end
For each moment forever each day
Such a gift has been given
It can never be taken away

(Instrumental)

The Beatles - Across The Universe

Words are flowing out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting through my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

We Shall Not Be Moved - The Seekers

Well I'm on my way to heaven,
We shall not be moved.
On my way to heaven
We shall not be moved,
Just like a tree that's standing by the water side,
We shall not be moved.

Chorus:
We shall not, we shall not be moved.
We shall not, we shall not be moved.
Just like a tree that's standing by the water side
We shall not be moved.

On the road to freedom,

We shall not be moved.
On the road to freedom
We shall not be moved,
Just like a tree that's standing by the water side,
We shall not be moved.

Chorus

We're brothers together,
We shall not be moved.
We're brothers together,
We shall not be moved.
Just like a tree that's standing by the water side
We shall not be moved.

Chorus

Welcome To My Life Lyrics – Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don’t know what it’s like

When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding
No you don’t know what it’s like

When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy but I’m not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted

You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like (what it’s like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down

And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Dear God Lyrics – Avenged Sevenfold

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find
While I recall all the words you spoke to me
Can’t help but wish that I was there
Back where I’d love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I’m not around,
when I’m much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
But I left her when I found her
And now I wish I’d stayed
’Cause I’m lonely and I’m tired
I’m missing you again oh no
Once again

There’s nothing here for me on this barren road
There’s no one here while the city sleeps
and all the shops are closed
Can’t help but think of the times I’ve had with you
Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I’m not around,
when I’m much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I’d stayed
’Cause I’m lonely and I’m tired
I’m missing you again oh no
Once again

Some search, never finding a way
Before long, they waste away
I found you, something told me to stay
I gave in, to selfish ways
And how I miss someone to hold
when hope begins to fade…
A lonely road, crossed another cold state line
Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is
to hold her when I’m not around,
when I’m much too far away
We all need the person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I’d stayed
’Cause I’m lonely and I’m tired
I’m missing you again oh no
Once again